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Milestones and Landmarks

August 4, 2009 Leave a comment

O Captain! my Captain! our fearful trip is done;
The ship has weather’d every rack, the prize we sought is won;
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring:
But O heart! heart! heart!
O the bleeding drops of red,
Where on the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

— Walt Whitman

Two years ago, I was absolutely sure of the direction I wanted my life to take: there were no valid paths open me other then graduate school. It appears this path has become overgrown with vegetation, as i can no longer seem to find it. Maybe it was the immaturity of the forest of life that made this path so easy to maintain. I am reminded of a time when I was much younger; all I wanted was to be a paleontologist. I quickly discovered that the dreams of a child are often fleeting, as my they quickly turned towards becoming an electrical engineer; to follow in the footsteps of my grandfather. Eventually this dream also slipped into an abyss as I discovered a fascination for computers. I am still mesmerized by computers, and have a strong desire to do something in the general field of computer science, but am no longer sure that dream involves graduate school at all. I think I need some time for a little self discovery; time to discover more closely who i am, and what I want to do with my life and career. In case it is not yet obvious, I am talking about getting a job. I am hoping a few years in the workforce of my chosen trade will help me decide if I want to work in research, or if I will be content with a lifetime of software development. Maybe the death of my previous path will allow me to forge a better one, as I proceed into the future.

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